Friday, 21 November 2014

Post-Exams thoughts and Reflections

I was done with my exams last week, on the 11th. I heaved a sigh of relief after my last paper despite performing less than average. 

Being able to study in Monash is really a blessing. Never did I knew and thought that I would make it. With HELP University being the pioneer for Psychology among private universities in Malaysia, I actually had some regrets for entering Monash. Firstly, the expensive fees, Secondly, the uncertainty of getting my Psychology major preferred by employers or graduate programs alike and Thirdly, worry of lack of peers with similar interests. 

Tuesday, 18 November 2014

"活得精彩" 简介

大家好. 欢迎来到我的 "活得精彩" 部落格.

我是望绮, 今年十九. 因觉得写个实实在在的中文全译是真的比使用 Google Translate 来得好许多. 这个网页将会是英文版内容的翻译. 此页未必有所有英文的文章及记录, 但是我将会尽力让喜爱华文文章的读者享饱眼福.

我在马来西亚接受华文教育, 因此写作文笔未免与祖国中国的有插入, 希望你们能够明白我写的东西及多多体谅.

Saturday, 1 November 2014

Exams time!!

Studying in the social sciences isn't an easy task. My first paper, "Communications Technologies and Practices" is in 2 days time. Here sits a procrastinator and super stressed girl who just got a panic attack a couple of days back upon realising the amount of readings and knowledge to be consumed and absorbed for the exams.

I am blessed to have only 3 papers to sit, excluding the General Studies paper I just did last Thursday. Next week, or as a matter of fact, in 2 days time, final exams will officially begin. I was worried these few days, constantly reminding myself that I have to study, yet my mind would throw me lots of excuses such as "I am lazy", "I feel like eating some food" (and there I go, 'flying' myself to 7-Eleven or my University's cafe to catch some snacks... and there goes 20 minutes of loitering around), "I feel like sleeping" etc. Subconsciously I know that I did not want to start as I felt overwhelmed by the workload. Recently I have also been oversleeping. As far as I can recall, these two days I slept over 10 hours. And I still felt like sleeping. Physically I also felt really tired. It means my body is signalling that I have to exercise regularly.

Fortunately, I finished the general overview of 4 chapters of Management, which is on next Wednesday. But I have yet to continue my comm. Then I thought, maybe I should read my Bible. However, I don't have the time to find what verse I want to read. So, I pulled out Max Lucado's Inspirational Reader. I read through the chapter on Encouragement. Here was what I got:

The Bible says that "in everything God works for the good of those who love him" (Romans 8:28 NCV).... Do this simple exercise. Remove the work everything, and replace it with the symbol of your tragedy. 
              In hospital stays God works for the good.
              In divorce papers God works for the good.
              In a prison term God works for the good.
....

What you and I might rate as an absolute disaster, God may rate as a pimple-level problem that will pass. He views your life the way you view a movie after you've read the book. When something bad happens, you feel the air sucked out of the theatre. Everyone else gasps at the crisis on the screen. Not you. Why? You've read the book. You know how the good guy gets out of the tight spot. God view your life with the same confidence. He's not only read your story... he wrote it.
-Come Thirsty

In my case, I would insert the words "exams preparation", "studies", "difficulties", "disappointments", "frustrations", "fear", "anxiety". 
I am reminded that God is with me, always.

Now, I suffer from weakness (physical) and lack of perseverance. When only a small wave hits, I fall to the ground, too tired to stand back up again. I need strength to carry on. And I know with faith in God, I will. 

Recently in a Women's event on depression, I learned that we cannot say 'I can't', because God says we can.

From Max Lucado's book I also discovered this passage, its meaning is similar to Matthew 6:34. 

Meet today's problems with today's strength. Don't start tackling tomorrow's problems until tomorrow. You do not have tomorrow's strength yet. You simply have enough for today.
-Travelling Light

Below are another two verses which I find helpful in reminding me to persevere on despite fear. 
Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
1 Peter 5:7
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Finally, I have finished my post. I am still exhausted from the day. But I will stand firm in my faith and push through these seasons of studying and doing exams. :)