Here I am, intentionally skipping college today, trying to be productive at home...
as college classes aren't always productive due to the upcoming trials
which starts tomorrow
But I ended up taking my own sweet time
waking up at 9am,
wasn't doing anything other than playing CCS
Candy Crush Saga
Well, I struggle with fear to study as well
I guess I was in "INACTION' state for too long
I fear unexpected things may happen if I start to STUDY again
It's been long since I took my studies seriously
since last year exams I guess
Its was a long time of me not doing anything actively
a long time I struggled.
with many things...
the horrible news on papers everyday
I believe that no matter how strong is the storm and wind
they will die down soon
I believe it's the time,
I put down all the hurtful past,
embrace it with all my heart
the sad moments and parts of my life
are still mine,
they still belong to me
no matter how much I want them to leave me
I wish to take this step
I want to continue my journey in Life
With more FAITH, CONFIDENCE, LOVE, HOPE.
I am glad I didn't deal with things on my own
I seek help, and I had help
I am walking, proceeding, letting go,
Being at PEACE with my mind, with myself, with my soul
When things go wrong,
I tell myself,
What is done IS done,
I tell myself,
Tomorrow's the beginning of Trials for my course
starting with ESL.
with 2 days weekend break
I am taking this trials seriously
although doing last minute revision
I am going for it,
praying for His protection, guidance and blessing.
|BEING AT PEACE|
WITH ALL OF MYSELF